I must not let him pass me by
I
am weak and the sun is so harsh
The crowds are so pressed, but still I
must not
I
cannot let him pass me by
My face is pale, my vision blurs
my
head is sick and spinning
My hands sweat cold, but I must go on
I
cannot let him pass me by
One foot in front of the other I place
one
stumbling step at a time
But this is my chance, my only chance
I
cannot let Him pass me by
I’m coming close, but the closer I
come
the
crowds push and throng all the more
They scream and tear me from the path
I have set
I
cannot let him pass me by
The hands are violent, crude and
rough,
they
come from every which side
They grab me and push, my strength
will give way
I
will fall like grass before the scythe
I will meet my end, surely I will
‘neath
the feet of this cruel crowd
But as long as I can, I must go on
I
cannot let him pass me by.
So long have I been afflicted
so
long in this gauntlet of ails
Nothing has worked, if I die here
amidst
the embrace of this
vulgar crowd
Better than dying alone, my dear
than dying in the bed of
regret
I have no other choice, to reach him
or try
to not would be death
just the same
He’s coming near, I see his face
I see his sweaty brow
Now is my chance, the last of my hope
I need not more than a
touch
His hands are too holy for one filthy
as I
I do not deserve to hold
His eyes too bright for my darkness
I do not deserve to look
His feet too pure for my mouth to
approach
I do not deserve to kiss
But his garment, just the hem that
drags on the ground
surely this could not be
wrong
As lowly as I am, as despised as
disgraced
just the hem, please
find in me no fault
For I like that hem, have been dragged
in the dust
soiled and threadbare
and torn
I am the hem of the garment of the
world
so let me now touch what
is mine
My hand reaches out, but I am thrown
to the ground
and the crowd begins its
mad trample
Still my hand reaches, over miles it
seems
of bare and hot dusty
road
Only the hem, only the hem
as I stretch every bone
toward that figure
Hundreds and hundreds of hurried
sandals
beat me into the ground
But all that I see is my hand reaching
forth
for that hem, for that
hem, for that hem!
And then I lay hold, and I wish you could feel it
like a pilgrim who at last sights the shrine
I grasp it with much more than merely
my hand
with my heart, with my soul, with my
mind
My whole body grasps with all that it
has
to that piece of rough
woven twine
And then comes the flow, the virtuous flow
a rushing and tingling peace
It sweeps my body like a torrent of
strength
burning, cleansing my
frame
So strong is this feeling I finally
let go
as it sweeps every nerve
every vein
From the tip of my hands, to the tip
of my feet
I shudder again and
again
The tears fill my eyes, and wonder my
heart
as I lie still prostrate
on the ground
I do not notice the crowd’s eerie hush
and the feet that before
me do part,
But soon I’m aware of the presence
that stands
and gazes upon me with
love
None other knows what between us has passed
save me and the one in
my eyes
The people are puzzled as they see him
draw near
and stoop before my
wounded hands
Slowly and crouching I sit myself up
but carry my head ever
low
My eyes wander round the foot trodden
sand
ever avoiding his gaze
“Was it you who touched me?” says the
gentlest voice
“Yes,” I slowly reply
I don’t know if I’m wrong, I don’t
know if I’m right
but this miracle? How
can I deny?
“Daughter” he answers and touches my
face
And the touch calms my
innermost fears
“Your faith has saved you, now go in
peace
and may you be every
whit whole”
The tears again flow down my bruised
beaten face
as it lingers in that
tender hand
I kiss it and thank him in sob muffled
cries
I pour out my gratitude
full heart
And then with a smile as warm as can
be
he lifts up himself and
he goes,
But his presence within lingers on
still
the part of himself left
in me
And soon I’m alone, the throng is all
gone
alone on the side of the
street
Reliving, reliving the magic exchange
that until today touches
my life
I cannot explain what happened that
day
only that one weak was
made whole
One with whose last strength stretched
out her hand
and was washed and
delivered and redeemed
I sat for a long time on that street’s
crumbly edge
before I could make my
way home
I stumbled along, this time with
relief
like walking through
hills in a dream
Oh what a wonder, oh what a miracle,
I found in his hem that blest
day
That even the unworthy, the downtrodden,
the scorned
can reach for that garb
and be saved
And though I returned dirty and
bruised
my soul would ever
rejoice
In this day that I sought him and
reached for that hem
this day that I strove
for his grace
I will ever be grateful for his mercy
divine
this day he did not pass
me by